my 2021

hey, peeps. welcome back to my secret base lol.

so, three months in for 2021. how are you guys doing? i hope yalls are doing great :) my 2021 started off pretty good but it's starting to go downhill /weee/. 

long story short, i'm failing my classes lmao, especially physics because wtf newton? well, i can't really blame anyone because it's my responsibility to keep my own life together but still, wtf :/ i never skipped classes despite knowing that i'm losing braincells each day, i'm trying my best to catch up with the assignments. but still, i'm sliding down the hill fabulously. 

istg, this semester feels so short. final is coming in may. why are we going so fast?! where are we going to?! bro, i love the subjects i'm studying but everything is being rushed rn. i can't keep up with these shits and i'm not enjoying it anymore. 

but i can't complaint because i literally chose this path lol. it's hard but i know for sure the others have it worst. i gotta keep looking at the bright side. or maybe nah, imma close my eyes and pretend i don't exist hahaha. 

/nervous laughing/ erm, so how do i tell my family.. that i'm literally having a mental breakdown without actually telling them. i guess the best solution is not to open up. it's okay, i still have a lot of space in my bottle. 

aight, i'm starting to not make sense rn. sorry, i have a test in 15 minutes. i just want to let some shits out before letting the new one in. 

i know nobody is gonna read this, but i feel kind of relieved that at least i can let my feelings out this way. 

anyway, stay safe yalls. love you <3